Failure

19 August 2012

At the end of my junior year of high school, I decided that I would do everything I could to make my senior year incredible. I wanted to take charge. Yet, I failed at almost everything I tried to do with my life. I never got what I believed I deserved, and I felt most of the time that people who were much less deserving of it always got what I wanted. Here's just a list of everything I tried so hard for the few years, and only the bold ones are the things I actually succeeded in.

• Masque and Mime Banquet Chair
• Masque and Mime Fundraising Chair
• Masque and Mime Hair Crew Chief
• Masque and Mime Senior Scholarship Winner
• Melissa Gleichenhaus Memorial Scholarship Winner
• In charge of the Melissa Gleichenhaus Mural project
• Getting into Chamber Choir 2010-2011
• Getting into Chamber Choir 2011-2012
• Accepted into every college I applied to
• Being able to afford living on Campus
• Future Business Leaders of America Treasurer
• Future Business Leaders of America 3rd place at Local Competition
• Future Business Leaders of America - went to State conference
• Future Business Leaders of America - won at State conference
• Passing my AP European History Exam
• Receiving any of the 25 other scholarships I applied for

I mean, I probably missed a few more things in there, since I'm trying to make this as quick as possible, but still. I look at this list, and I just say "I'm a failure. Look, I didn't do anything right." I never got anything I believed I deserved, and I get really upset over a lot of things.